higher gear

has it really been since december? so much has happened.

right now I am feeling sad. many changes have happened in my life yet some days I just feel really down. I am crazy thinking I might ruin or damage something really good in my life with the inability to "get it done". I know what this is...this is my outlet.

tomorrow will be a better day. meeting of the minds, if you will...to brainstorm and maybe get our asses in higher gear for something productive.

keep your fingers crossed.

time

so much time has gone by...and too much to try to get into a concise post.

so that is all I am saying about that.

a woman

you do not have to be your mother unless she is who you want to be. you do not have to be your mother's mother or your mother's mother's mother, or even your grandmother's mother on your father's side. you may inherit their chins or their hips or their eyes, but you are not destined to become the women who came before you, you are not destined to live their lives. so if you inherit something, inherit their strength. if you inherit something, inherit their resilience. because the only person you are destined to become is the person YOU DECIDE to be.

the fish

You are having a very difficult time pin pointing your feelings right now, Pisces, and you can expect this trend to last for some time. This is a situation where if you allow yourself to proceed on previous romantic assumptions, you will eventually find that you have been way off base the entire time. This is a good time to question your own motivations and what you really want when it comes to love. You keep saying that you want long term happiness, but have you truly laid the groundwork to make this possible? Use your dream world or the cues that come from your imagination, and you will find that you are getting more signs of a positive nature with romance than you may think.

PH: words

a gift

Friends are like gifts. You never know when or if you might come across a good one. Sometimes you are given a gift you did not even know you wanted, or needed. But when you are given the gift, and you realize what a great gift it is, you cherish that gift.

Thanks for the gift.

almost wednesday

more ww

concerts

Tuesday Tunes: Week 103
The theme this week is concerts...

What's the best concert you've attended? hmm. difficult to answer..John Cougar or Peter Gabriel or ZZTop.
What's your dream concert lineup? The Doors, The Stones, The Beatles...
Smallest/largest concert you've attended: does my son's band concert count? :) ah, Wham! was huge in the 80's
One artist you'd like to see in concert: Lifehouse

don't pretend

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.

wait a minute

yes, the new life, sorta, is taking shape. at a slow, often annoying pace, but taking shape.

what sucks now won't suck as much in a year, right?

that's what I keep telling myself.

yeah, keep telling yourself that.

new life, sorta

whew, that last post, one might think my garden has been trampled. well, it feels like it sometimes! I am still feeling a bit lost but am also feeling empowered. can one feel both emotions simultaneously?

my poor garden

my licorice garden. my poor licorice garden. it is wilting. it is growing weeds. I can't seem to be able to find my way through all the extra growth here..and it isn't good growth but rather the sort of growth that if left untended to, can destroy something.

and I don't want my garden destroyed.

not now, not ever.

uh oh